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Thursday, April 14, 2011

Te Kotahitanga : New Zealand

hellooooo...i'm going to Auckland, New Zealand from 16th to 24th april..!!! fly by Royal Brunei to Bandar Sri Begawan and from there will fly to Auckland.

From Auckland we will go to Hamilton to meet Professor Russell Bishop from University of Waikato. Then i will present my paper " Educational Perspective Among Indigenous Students Based On The Model GPILSEO- A case study in the state of Pahang". i will ask him his opinion about my tesis proposal. he is the creator of the Model GPILSEO but his subject of research is on the Maori people of New Zealand.

from there we will go to Rotorua..hope i will enjoy my stay there...see you again!!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Down The Memory Lane

6 days to go.i have been waiting to do this long time a go but never have a chance. now i have the opportunity i cant wait to go. i'll be away this sunday but i will tell you on the last minute only where is the destination. i'm so evil muahahaha...

when i was a kid, my late father went there for a course cum work. he stayed there without us for about two years. everymonth without failed he sent us a parcel full with chocolates and toys. we were eagerly waiting for his presents. but everytime the parcels came, the chocolates already melted. but we ate it anyway. it tasted better than the local chocolates anyway.

when he finally came home i was about 4 years old. yeah it has been long time.and now it was my turn to go there..i wish i can share with him my experiences when i come home. i can share the name of places i go and i am sure he will still remember the place. until the last moment we talked about it and i could see how he was happy to talk about this place. but now i couldnt share it with him. i was regret he didnt take us along with him that time. but he told us, my mom was scared to follow him that time. she was rather stayed behind at kampung with my grandmother and grandfather. she didnt want to follow him. so he left us and went alone.

after that my father never left us again except for the last 2 years he was in the army. they sent him to Labuan, Sabah. like before, my mom didnt want to follow him. this time the reason was, i was going to sit for my big exam when i was in primary school. but the sacrified paid off. i got 5A's in my exam. then i was away in boarding school. then out of the blue my father came home for good. he was with us until the last breath. i miss u ayah. i wish u can send me to the airport to the place you have been to once..i would love to..i really do eventhough it is impossible.i really really miss u ;(

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Canopy Walkway Taman Negara

well, this is the best and the scariest part when i was in Taman Negara. At first glace , there was nothing to be afraid of..we just enjoyed our adventure there but when i was on top of the walkway suddenly i had this fear..what will happen if the rope give away? what will happen to me then? eventhough i was slightly regretted my decision to walk on the canopy but it was too late to back off..i could feel my knees trembling..but i had to be brave then..there were so many people behind me taking turns to walk on the i had no choice but to finish it..hahaha..the view from the canopy was breathtaking.. i could see Tembeling River from above..this is the lifetime experience..words cannot justified the have to be there to feel what i feel..i felt very relieved when we finished the walkway..i thanked god for giving me chance to experince this..whoever love outdoor activities..shouldnt let go this opportunity..just go for it!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Taman Negara Part 11

hi all..very tired..exhausted..body aching all 3 in 1..haha..but really satisfied..
sorry not much pics to upload..internet so slow...will talk about it later..see you again n enjoy!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Taman Negara @ National Park

school holidays was officially over yesterday. today is just another day. wake up early and manage to be in school on time. assembly as usual.

looking back, there was nothing much i did during the break. not going anywhere except for my cousin'n wedding in Malacca. The groom is on my side and the bride is gorgeous with tiny winy waist hahaha. i should remember what i said about her in another 2, 3 years. hope she's still have that bad of me..just kidding!!

this thursday i have another project with my supervisor. this time we will headed to Taman Negara. lets read the history of Taman Negara. Taman Negara was declared for conservation in 1938 and has become Malaysia's premier national park and the largest in the country covering over 4343 square kilometres (434,300 hectares) of primary forest, spans across three states Kelantan, Terengganu and Pahang - and is situated in the centre of the Peninsula Malaysia. Taman Negara is the most extensive protected area of pristine, lowland, evergreen rainforest in the country.

Taman Negara originated from a Pahang State Legislation in 1925 and in the district of Jerantut. Over 1300 square kilometres of tropical jungle in its natural state was designated "THE GUNUNG TAHAN GAME RESERVE". This became the National Park in 1938 when the Sultan of Pahang, Terengganu and Kelantan set aside the present area, and named it the "KING GEORGE V NATIONAL PARK". After Independence, the name was changed to TAMAN NEGARA. The stated purpose of Taman Negara is "to utilise the land within the park in perpetuity, for the propagation, protection and preservation of indigeneous flora and fauna". With so much to see and do, a trip to Taman Negara is a must on your itinerary.

well, i'm not going just for the fun of it but doing my second research. i cant wait for the boat ride. i heard we need at least 3 hours to reach Kg.Bantal the settlement of the indegenous people of Batek clan. we will staying there until sunday so no facebook, blogging, or chatting for me. see u next monday only!!bye..

Saturday, March 12, 2011


My heart goes to those who has been affected very badly by tsunami especially in Japan. i pray to god it will not happen here in Malaysia even thought nothing is impossible nowadays. i cannot imagine the sorrow and despairs of the people who had lost their family members and their belonging. oh god please ease their pain in whatever way You can give them.

me too having a tsunami right now. i had made a terribly bad mistake and i had to pay for the consequences especially in monetary terms. but please god give me a second chance to rectify this problem. i made lots of mistakes in the past but this is the biggest so far. tomorrow is the D-Day for me and i hope i can get through. please give me the strength.

whatever the consequences i am still grateful that my problems are not as bad as whatever happened in Japan. the total lost is so huge, peoples had lost their family members, their property and many things. i cannot imagine how they are going to rebuild their life back to normal.i pray to god, give them the strength to face the world after this.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


hi all..nothing much to share except yesterday actually was International Women's Day..lets do some reading what exactly it was all about...

IWD is now an official holiday in Afghanistan, Armenia, Azerbaijan, Belarus, Burkina Faso, Cambodia, China (for women only), Cuba, Georgia, Guinea-Bissau, Eritrea, Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan, Laos, Madagascar (for women only), Moldova, Mongolia, Montenegro, Nepal (for women only), Russia, Tajikistan, Turkmenistan, Uganda, Ukraine, Uzbekistan, Vietnam and Zambia. The tradition sees men honouring their mothers, wives, girlfriends, colleagues, etc with flowers and small gifts. In some countries IWD has the equivalent status of Mother's Day where children give small presents to their mothers and grandmothers.

The new millennium has witnessed a significant change and attitudinal shift in both women's and society's thoughts about women's equality and emancipation. Many from a younger generation feel that 'all the battles have been won for women' while many feminists from the 1970's know only too well the longevity and ingrained complexity of patriarchy. With more women in the boardroom, greater equality in legislative rights, and an increased critical mass of women's visibility as impressive role models in every aspect of life, one could think that women have gained true equality. The unfortunate fact is that women are still not paid equally to that of their male counterparts, women still are not present in equal numbers in business or politics, and globally women's education, health and the violence against them is worse than that of men.

However, great improvements have been made. We do have female astronauts and prime ministers, school girls are welcomed into university, women can work and have a family, women have real choices. And so the tone and nature of IWD has, for the past few years, moved from being a reminder about the negatives to a celebration of the positives.

Annually on 8 March, thousands of events are held throughout the world to inspire women and celebrate achievements. A global web of rich and diverse local activity connects women from all around the world ranging from political rallies, business conferences, government activities and networking events through to local women's craft markets, theatric performances, fashion parades and more.

Many global corporations have also started to more actively support IWD by running their own internal events and through supporting external ones. For example, on 8 March search engine and media giant Google some years even changes its logo on its global search pages. Year on year IWD is certainly increasing in status. The United States even designates the whole month of March as 'Women's History Month'.

So make a difference, think globally and act locally !! Make everyday International Women's Day. Do your bit to ensure that the future for girls is bright, equal, safe and rewarding.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

An Indigenous People of Malaysia

our prime minister and ministers
these kids are from Semai Group
they performing their cultural dance for this program
arent they cute?what an experience! eventhought i'm still fatique, tired and having a backache but i was enjoying my stay in Pahang. we managed to visit 2 villages. that was in Kg. Runchang and Pos Betau in Pahang.

overall they lived below poverty. they have a basic necessities. with no electricity and clen water. they dont even bother about educations eventhough they been provided with schools with good infrastructure. but the problem is they dont have good transportation to go to school.they kids was eager to learn but most of the time they couldnt catch up with the syllabus. they speak their own language so bahasa melayu is their second language. so you know how difficult for them to grab the subject.

but they love entertainment. they can sing well and most of them have good the way to tackle them is with song. you can see how lively they are when they sing a song. you name one song they can know. amazing! maybe we can introduce something like learning through a song for them? hope the education ministry can do something about this so they can be better in their academic achievement.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Field Work In Pahang

meet jack my bunny pet..he is so cute huh?

it has been long time, i know. i have lots of idea what to write but i just couldnt put it in my blog. finally after came back from SOPD( sorry i dont know what it is stand for but it is one of the department in general hospital.) few weeks ago i needed to go for a medical check up. they did blood and urine test and also an ultrasound. but everything turn out to be okay. i was so happy to hear this news. now i can keep my appointment cards away safe in my drawer and no need to worry things like how is my kidney doing or when is exactly my appointment is. nice huh?

today i'm going to pack my things. where to? hmmm..after hustle and bustle about what kind of leave do i have to take from everything is settled. they finally agreed that i was entitled to my Cuti Kursus Sambilan. actually i'm going to penempatan orang asli (orang asli is a native peoples in this country). as a sociologist i need to be with them, talk and observe them for 5 days.this is a part of my phd field work.i will focus about their education and career. i hope i can help do something in the future to help them to live in a better conditions and make they understand that education is a tool..a social mobility for them to improve their social economic status especially for the children.its not an easy job but if i can change their perception even a little bit i am happy..

how do i feel? i dont know what to expect yet. i hope i can enjoy my stay there and collect as many datas i can.there is a long way to go but i always positive. will update you soon about my experiences. see ya!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Family Picnic In Lubuk Petai

during Chinese New Year holidays we went to a waterfall nearby called Lubuk Petai. It was fun because all of my siblings were there. to whom who dont know where Lubuk Petai is, its actually located near Gunung Datuk, Rembau.

the water is crystal clear with lots of rocks around it. its so cold i tell you..i was shivering like nobody business after the dip in the pool.

i was regret not taking any picture because it was not planned at all. actually my ex classmate told me about this waterfall. It was a about 50 meters from her mom's house.

but my siblings and me already planned another trip to Lubuk Petai soon. This time we are going to put a tent and bring some foods to indulge after the swim. it was really fun and i cant wait to go was really a surprise because its quite near from my kampung also. all this while i know only about Ulu Bendul in Kuala Pilah and Jeram Toi in Jelebu. It was really a nice one and clean too. The best apart is not many people know about this waterfall so i can tell you its still lushes and pure not like any other commercialize waterfall.

so which waterfall you have been to and tell me about it.maybe i can take a visit one day. my ultimate dream of course to visit Niagara Fall one day. hope my wish will comes true. amin.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Which Phone? Iphone or Blackberry?

i need a new phone. the one that i have been used for so many year was Sony Erickson. somebody had bough it for me in Dubai. it was a special phone. i have so many good and bad memories with that phone.but now it has stop working..

i remember one day when my ex school mates arranging a reunion dinner for us in Allson Klana. i drove myself that nite. then i received a phone call from one of my family member who wanted to make sure i was safely arrived. after that i put the phone on my lap. when i arrived at the hotel it was raining cats and dogs. i totally forgotten about my phone because i was busy looking for an umbrella to avoid being wet in the rain.

when i met my old friends they i became very excited. some of them, i had not see for so may years. we ate and laughed especially when we talked about our old days in school. all of us were in boarding school. so, there were so many stories to share among us. i really enjoyed it that time until one of my best friend asked me where was my phone because my family had tried to reach me but with no avail.

i frantically tried to search in in my handbag but i could not find it.then suddenly i remembered the last time i saw it was on my lap. i excused myself and ran to my car. it was still raining at that time. when i reached my car..there it was.. lying on the road was my orange colored phone! soaking wet! i felt like crying man.. it was almost about 2 hours raining!

but amazingly it was still working well.i called my family and told them i was safe and my phone i had left it in the car!hahaha...

so back to my first intentions..which brand should i buy this time? i used Nokia, Motorolla and Samsung before..maybe i need aan Iphone or Blackberry this time? can somebody suggest it to me..anyone?

but now i need to do some window shopping at the nearest phone shop maybe in Jusco. budget? hmmmm that is the most important thing that i have to bear in mind...angpow anyone?

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

what am i going to do?

i was a little bit tired. i have been asked by my supervisor to teach his masters student classes. it's only once a week but i have to prepare for my notes and etc. i'm not going to teach primary school students here..teaching them was so easy i can do it with my eyes blindfolded. but adult students? i hope i wont be stammering then..but oh my..i was mentally tired.

Ministry of Education has been offering teachers some kind of scholarship but without the 'RM'. they giving us some sort of full salary leave for us to further our study. but when i access the portal i kind of pissed off. it is because the subject that i've been taking on was not offered. so thats mean i cannot apply for it! i mean why they just offer it to all? i called them and the answer was that is up the the ministry to offer what they want to offer..sigh! i love to do what i'm doing right now but it will burden me if i cannot take the leave. i need it badly! i have to go to the perkampungan orang asli to get my data done. how on earth i'm going to do that if i have to go to school everyday? i can go during the school holidays but i need to observe the students doing their learning in school too? hope i will find answer to this problem soon...:(

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

dear diary,
today is not a very good day for me..i couldnt sleep well last nite because of my asthma, cough and running nose. the weather dont do justice to my well being. i dont blame the weather solely but i think my health is deteriorating since i removed my fibroid and womb last year. self pity i am but life must go on.i keep telling myself to look forward not backward. but sometimes, it is easier to said than done..

my younger brother just had his operations and now resting at my place. seeing him in pain also make me feel sad..after losing my dad i feel i need to take care of everybody in the family. i am the eldest and i feel that is my responsibility now to bond with them. i feel i am more closer with my mom, my sis and my brother now compared to last time.

talking about job, i have a meeting after school with my Senior assistant regarding students welfare. after that i have a meeting with my supervisor in university. but with my conditions right now i dont know i might be able to attend both meeting or not. i will consider it later..right now first things first...i have lots of problem to settle yet i'm very helpless...god please help me...i'm at your mercy right now.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Greetings from Nagoya

time flies very fast. its going to be the 2nd week of the month. so many things i have to do...

the first week of school i have to conduct orientation program for the form 4 students. our school managed to get a good result for pmr compared to the previous year.

during the holiday, i was lucky to have met one of my blogger friend anie from nagoya. she also have a blog, 'LOVE'. she came with her husband and two cute little boys. the husband is japanese and she is a malay. i managed to show the boys my collections of monkey cups..the subject of their fascination...hahaha..i captured few photos with them but sorry to tell that the picture was blurred due to some technicalities..if i have time i will upload later anyway. if u read this anie..i'm glad to know you and i hope we can meet up again in the future.

apart from that, i also has started my PhD clsses in UKM. my supervisor is Dr Razaq and Datin Zahara. I have met Dr Razaq..he is a nice person and i hope i can work well with him in the future. his interest is in sociology and the main subject is the native people or orang asli. looks like i have to mix and mingle with them for the next three years. good luck babe..